Hi! Hello! Hola!
I just want to tell you guys to check out my brand new serious blog. huahahauahuaha
I’m no longer write here on Friendster blog but I will write entries in my new blog address.
Here’s the URL:
http://whitelilystories.blogspot.com/
Ooh..Thanks to Christa. Honestly,this idea came up in my head because of you. You are the inspiration!
Thanks for stopping by, and I hope you do enjoy the same with my new one.
This morning, a thought come into my mind and that’s make me want to write something in anything. Just put my thought in a piece of paper so it won’t lose somewhere in the air. But as usual, the laziness come up on me. And every time the laziness comes up in the surface of my every day life, I lost my thought suddenly!
The next thing I know is I don’t know what to write, I lose my mood, and so the other thousand reasons to write.
Funny because basically I love to write. I love to share something, my thought and my experiences, my feelings, my opinion about something. I guess I really need to fight that laziness. It’s like a disease in my hobby. And like disease is supposed to be treated, I’m going to fighting it and keep writing. Yay!!
Anyway, this morning I have a thought about my mom. Well, I never wrote anything about her before and it’s surprising me to know that she is the one I should be wrote about in the very first place. So many things about her I need to thank you and discover, because a Mom or to be specific my mom, deserves it. At least that’s the way I say a bunch of thank you and say I do love her.
My mom, basically has two different kind of moods.
It is a nice and lovely mood where she can be so lovely and nice and happy. And that’s make every single human being who’s living in my house can have the same mood. EVERYONE HAPPY!
She has a power to make my house is like a paradise, when she has that mood.
In the other hand, she has a grumble, complaining mood. She can grumble and complaining start from one problem then flow to the other problem and end with a totally different topic from the first problem.
Every time her “dark” mood comes up, my house feels like….dark.
I hate the dark.hauahahuahua
But she’s a human anyway. It could happen t anyone of us. But I still hate the dark.hyahya…=P
I really amazed by her spirit to stay healthy. I don’t know if she’s addicted to daily physically exercise (I don’t know what it called in English. But it called senam in Indonesia) but she really has a passion to do that. She doesn’t do it just for fun or just waste some time in her spare time, but she takes it as a routine and must do activity. I can’t imagine myself do it every morning, have to get myself up at 7 o’clock every morning and have the same burning spirit like her. hauahahahau
Can’t do it, at least right now. wkwkwk
I still love to be in my bed at 7 o’clock in the morning, still dreaming around somewhere, enjoying the warm under my blanket, and sleeping away. But I think I need to start do it maybeeee……3-4 years later??? huahahhaha, I don’t know I Love to sleep!!!.
My mom is my superhero. She can not fly and punch someone of course but she gave me birth so I can breathe and live this life. That’s the wonderful strength she has or all women have. Through hers, a baby is born! A human creature is born! No other experience is more amazing than this. Well, my experiences with God is wonderfully the same as this.
I can imagine how happy she was, when baby me cried for the very first time. She hugs me, loves me, and treats me like I am the most beautiful God’s creation on earth. I wonder maybe I’ll have that kind of wonderful feeling someday too.
I don’t know yet how suffer and how hard to be pregnant and give birth, but it hurt you a lot I heard. I can’t imagine how suffer and how hurt it is, but someday I will know. My mom always said that I will never how hard to give birth and raise children before you experience it yourself. And I think it’s true.
There are times when I hurt her, treat her in the way she’s not to be treated, have fights and argues with her, and didn’t respect her as my mother.
But as time goes by, I become more realize that it’s not the way I treat a mother.
I suppose to loves her, cares for her, protects her, proud of her, treats her well.
Now I can say this out loud,
I love my mother
I do care for her
I am definitely proud of her
And I am going to treat her well.
But there’s one sentence I fear the most until this moment is
Nothing is real till it’s gone.
Sometimes a fear thought drop by in myhead and suddenly I wonderi how’s my life without my mom?
Someday, she’ll leave this world and so me and the rest fo the family.
I can’t imagine how to live this life without seeing her everyday, hear her grumbling like she usually does, talk and laughing with her…
I think the only way to light up that fear is to be grateful of her and everything about her.
So when the time is come, I am regret nothing.
And at the end of my thought, I left this beautiful words taken from Ricahrd Marx’s Thanks to You lyric..
You gave me life,
Gave me your heart
Your shoulder when I needed to cry
You gave me hope when all my hope is gone
Wings so my dreams can fly
You gave me your word,
Gave me your voice
Gave me your everything,
Each breath of your life
You believe when I can never have
You teach my faith to survive
And I haven’t told you enough
Haven’t been good enough,
Never thank you enough, for all that you are
My love for you will live in my heart
Until eternity’s through….
I see your smile in the eyes of my child
I am who I am
Mama, Thanks to you
In family,
no one left behind…
Quote of the day:
You don’t choose your family. They are God’s gift to you, as you are to them. ~Desmond Tutu
When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother, what will I be
Will I be pretty, will I be rich
Here’s what she said to me.
Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future’s not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.
When I was young, I fell in love
I asked my sweetheart what lies ahead
Will we have rainbows, day after day
Here’s what my sweetheart said.
Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future’s not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.
Now I have children of my own
They ask their mother, what will I be
Will I be handsome, will I be rich
I tell them tenderly.
Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future’s not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.
What is the meaning of love?
What is your meaning of love?
Do you ever think about that?
I really want to know
Because for me,
Love is the beginning of life
It gives us hope and reason to live
To keep walking and stand still when the world is falling apart
Love is about being there, holding someone’s hand when they sad
Just to show that you are there for them
Love is about not being selfish
To let someone you love reach their dreams
Give them wings, encourage them to fly
Love is to feel something special in side human’s heart without a reason
It just there inside you and keep growing
Love is about sacrifice
Always ready to let go something,
Just to make sure there’s a smile in their face
And then you realize that that’s the biggest happiness you looking for
Love is about understanding, even in a silence
It doesn’t need to speak a word,
but it already understand what they need the most
Love is about take and give
You give sincerely, and take what you get gracefully
Love is about appreciation, love is about being supportive
Be the greatest fan of their life.
Do you feel the same way?
Love is not about the beginning of the feeling,
It’s about the process itself
It’s not about how you express the feeling for the first time,
but it’s about how you express the feeling everyday of your life
It’s not about being nice at the very beginning,
It’s about how you treat them well for the rest of your life
It’s not about being everything for them at the very first time,
It’s about being everything they need all the time
Be there as a companion when they are sad,
Be there as a partner when they need a hand,
Be happy when they are happy
Love isn’t about the beauty
It still there in your heart even though
your hair turn into grey and there’s wrinkle in your face every time you smile
You are going to see them beautiful the same in your own way
Love has thousands meaning
Everyone has one of it
No one right, no one wrong
But one thing I am sure about
That love is one thing that keeps this world alive
The reason why smile is still in everyone’s face
The reason why people are walking a thousand miles just to see someone special
The reason why people are doing crazy things that they don’t realize
It’s love.
susan,December 31 2007
This is my second testimonial for some of my friends. Hope that they know how much I love them, how much I appreciate them, and how much I thank God because He let me to meet them at some point of my life. They are my angels, my angels of life. And just like an angel does….. They bring happiness and joy, peace and comfort, laughter and love, companion and protect each other…. something to share in our everyday life.
Dear Dewi,
First of all I would like to say thank you. You are my best friend in high school. I know we’ve been through a lot of laughter and anger, sad and happiness especially when we were together as a team in OSIS. I will never forget every obstacle we fought, every tear we cried, and every fun and laughter we shared. You’ve done a lot for me, and I do thank you, you are such a good person.
You were my closest friend in high school, and that’s what I will remember for the rest of my life. Now we moving on, we are at different college, with different friends, different laugh and jokes…different in everything. But I just want you to know this.
That deep down inside my heart, you are still my best friend. And along with that, I still care for you and always ready to be there at the first place for you every time you need me.
Dear Edo,
The most ignorance and the most not visionary type of person I ever know. You act and do whatever you want to do, and throw the risks behind. But I really hope I am wrong, and you already become someone better in everything.
All in all, for me you are such a great friend. I remember your were there through my hardest time, and I was there through your hardest time. I am really grateful to found a friend like you in my life and I love you, I do care for you with all this heart.
For me, you are my best friend, my brother, and my pal and partner (especially when we sing a long songs. huhauauhauhau)
Thank you Do for everything. You don’t know how much I thank you. And I am wishing you all the greatest wishes on earth!
Dear Nyek,
You can be a sweet person you know. But I think sometimes you choose to be mean to me.muahaha
But I know, deep down there, you still have that sweet-sweet heart. Thank you nyek… even though we are not that close anymore comparing with the time in high school, you are still be someone I can count on in anytime. I still remember you were there through my hard times, you listen to every word I said, you were there every time I need a companion, I remember you were there….
You are my best friend. (Once again even though you are turn into your dark side a.k.a “mean to me” time) I am glad I met you, I am glad I knew you, and have you as my best friend.
Still! I know that in some way, you do care for me and I am care for you. Thank you for been there and I hope I can be there too for you, anytime you need me.
Dear Vipe,
You are the most rebellion person I ever know. The most girl rock music lover I ever know. The most DVD addicted person I ever know. The most crazy and principle person at the same time I ever met. But overall, you are the unique person.
With you, I learn not the listen to what other people talk about us. We live in our own life, and we rule that little world of our own. Too many people talking and sometimes it get crowded in our head if we listen to them.
From you I learn to wear something I want, even it look weird for others.
From you I learn to do whatever I want to do, even if other people won’t do it.
I learn to think differently, act differently, and be ourselves.
Be my self.
So thank you Vipe, for teaching me (I know in the time you read this, your mouth probably going to wide open and read with unbelievable kind of starring, but you know, I don’t care) to be myself. Thank you for being so kind for me, and I love you (in the clean and straight way of loving) with alllll my heart.
At some point, I thank God that I met and knew you, to teaching me all the things I never did before. To be someone better and greater, in some way.
And I believe this is not a kind of coincidence that I met and knew you, but may be it’s suppose to be that way.
I love you babe!!
Dear Nita,
My first real friend in college, perhaps? I don’t know but what I know for sure is you are become lazier lately. And in the other hand, your artificial twin, Vipe, become more diligent in some way. You can be ridiculous and serious at the same time. But I think your ridiculous side becomes dominant these days. hhauahahauahua
I can easily trust you, I can easily connect and share everything with you, I feel comfort and enjoying myself every time near you.
That’s what makes us friends, I think.
You are an independent kind of person, the same DVD freak just like Vipe, and the kind of friend I have to thank God because He let me met and know you. Sometimes, I wonder how we met, how we become friend…
But I think only God knows why, so I just keep those questions in my head while I am thankful enough for being one of your friend. To share laughter, craziness, and fun.
And the most important is for being friends for you and with you. Thank you Nita for everything little things you do for me and I will make sure I will be there for you as a friend in tough or rough time, in good and bad time, in any season and weather (well, maybe not all weathers, but believe me I will be there in someway).
That’s what I want you to remember anyway.
As usual, I lap you babe!!!
Be content with what you have, rejoice in the way things are. When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you.
Lao Tzu
AKU INGIN
aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana:
dengan kata yang tak sempat diucapkan kayu kepada api
yang menjadikannya abu
aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana:
dengan isyarat yang tak sempat disampaikan awan kepada hujan
yang menjadikannya tiada
“Ross: What if there is only one woman for everybody? You know. What if I get one woman and that’s it?
Unfortunately in my case there was one woman… for her.
Joey: Ross, relax that’s like saying there’s only one flavour of ice-cream for you.
Let me tell you something Ross, there’s lots of flavours out there.
There’s rocky road, cookie dough and bingo! Cherry vanilla. You can get them with jimmies or nuts,
or whipped cream. Welcome back to the world, grab a spoon!
Ross: I honestly don’t know whether I’m hungry or horny.
Chandler: You stay out of my freezer.”
Hidup ini indah, itu kata orang-orang. Mungkin mereka bilang begitu karena banyak faktor. Mungkin karena mereka banyak uang, mungkin karena mereka bisa mendapatkaan apa yang mereka inginkan. Mungkin karena mereka baru sembuh dari sakit jadi segala jadi terasa indah, atau mungkin karena karena-karena yang lain. But for me, what makes this life is soo beautiful is everyone who stays beside me through everything.
And sometimes, this life is spinning around too fast. Sometimes we forget to stop from our routine for a while. We do forget to cherish this life with the one we love. We lost in our own track of time, we rushing too fast, then finally we realize that everything is too far to catch up.
The relationship we build after all this time, lose their tightness and we put the sweet memories far-far away in our memory.
I fully realize that there are some points in my life that I do all those kind of things. And before it’s too late, I want to do something to show them, all my beloved one, how much I love you, how much I do care for you, how much I want this relationship we have right now……keep strong and warm for eternity.
I dedicate this testimonial to you, and make yourself smile in the time you read this, because it is true, from deep down inside my heart.
Dear Fenny,
Whoa…I never count how many years we’ve been a friend, then become one of my best friend. But I know it happened for a long-long time. 14 years I think? I count it from our kindergarten until our high school time. I even still remember how cute your face is when you were in the elementary school.hahaha…
Well, we are not best friend for an instance, and that’s makes our friendship become strong. And I want you to know that I am proud of you.
These days maybe a little rough for us. We have a little different world of our own right now. You are busy with your own study, your own matters….and so do I. Our friendship lose it tightness and we are not that close anymore. But whatever life could bring to us, to our friendship, I hope you know you are the best I ever found in a friend, and I do care for you, will be there for you anytime you need me, and will be stay with your through whatever. I just want to say thank you, for every little things you did. You are superb!!!
Dear Lucy,
You are far now. We separate into two different continents and it’s hard for us to see each other anytime we want. Thanks God we have the technology so we can keep in touch. Haha… Lucy, I know that time and communication limitation make our friendship is not exactly like we have before. But I want you to know that you are such a wonderful friend. Deep down inside me, you are still my best friend I can easily talk with. Thank you for you support for all this time, thank you for being so helpful, I do thank you.
I wish you a great life either, because you deserve it.
I hope those exams and assignment don’t torture you anymore, because it’s kind of funny to hear you screaming and crawling in the msn.huahahahahahahaha….
Dear
Novi ,
Aku inget kamu, pasti inget jagung.hahahaha…soal’e km keseringan ngajak aku ma fenny jagungan.huahahaha….Kamu ini kalo udah waktu’e gila…semua jaid gila.hahaha….Well honestly I love to see you that way, daripada km harus murung, diem, sedih gitu.
Bi, I just want to say thank you. You are a wonderful best friend. Aku tau terutama sekarang ini, kita udah sibuk kiri kanan nggak karuan. Kita beda jurusan, dan itu yang buat kita jadi susah pergi bareng kayak dulu.
But deep down my heart, no matter how far we go in the different direction, you still my best friend. I think we should stop for a while from our routine and spend some time for each other. Right?
I love to hear you laughing again….because it’s hard for me to find it now.
Dear Jackson,
There you are…one of my best buddy ever…. How did we became this close? And when? I can’t remember it well. All I want to say is thank you, for everything you gave me. Thank you for the supports, thank you for listening every words I said, thank you for be there for me through my hardest days. Thank you for the faith you have in me, thank you for your trust, thank you, thank you, thank you.
I do thank you.
In my opinion, you are a great man. And you deserve everything great either. I want you to know that I always be there in your back, to watch and help you, forever!
I think that’s what best friends are for, rite?
Dear Reagan,
What can I say… you are the one with amazing transformation I think. Inget waktu pertama kali kamu masuk SMA? Haha….you are totally different from now. You’ve been a great friend, a great partner, then a great best friend for me. Huah…kalo inget kamu pasti jadi inget masa-masa LDKS & OSIS dulu. Dulu kita sibuk kiri kanan ngurusi OSIS, pulang malem-malem makan pak dji deket rumah’e astrella sana, aku ma dewi kadang main ke kos-mu, ke Taman Safari bareng bul-bul gank, ikut LDKS sampe 3 kali berturut2 saking cinta’e sama pepohonan, sampe rutin pergi tiap sabtu ma arek2. And you know what, i miss old times…….Aku berharap ada satu masa dalam hidupku, aku bisa kembali ke masa lalu, ngulangi itu lagi sekali lagi.
So! Thank you gen for everything. Walaupun sekarang km tambah jahat ma aku (huahahaha) tapi nggak papa, km tetep temenku yang baek. Because for me, you are Reagan that I met years ago, and in my eyes, that won’t change even a little.
And I believe, how different you are from before, you still have the old Reagan inside. That’s what I treasure the most from you.
Dear Agre,
You want to know my impression about you? You are unique. From you, I learn not to follow what other people tell me to. I learn that we should measure our own standard without seeing others. We should be honest, say what we have to say…
Maybe you don’t realize that you are unique. But I think you are. And thank you for showing me a different way of act in this life. With you, everything will be so different from the world that I live in. I hope you intend to keep it all, because I proud of you that way.
We can’t see each other so often. We have different space of life, we have different path of life. But for me, you are still my friend I can easily share everything with, you are still my friend who can keep me being my own self, you are still my friend and forever it will be. I don’t know what this life could bring to us. But I just wish that even we live in the different path of life, I still be your friend, and do everything a friend should do for you.
Thank you for everything, gre. You are the inspiration!
Dear Edric,
You are big, you know. You change me a lot, dric.
First, I want to say that I am very proud of you. I wish you know that from the beginning. You have a power to change the way that I used to think.
Aku inget gimana popler-nya kamu pas SMA, semua orang terutama cewek-cewek amazed by you, adore you, love you even more.hahaha…..But strange, I didn’t felt what they felt. Mungkin karena aku udah terlalu lama tahu kamu, jadi apa yang luar biasa jadi biasa buat aku. Well, mungkin aku udah pernah bilang ke kamu dulu, tapi aku pengen kamu tahu lagi. That you are my inspiration. Aneh memang kenapa aku nggak milih Mahatma Gandhi ato Mother theresa barangkali buat jadi inspirasi. Nggak tau kenapa jadinya kamu yang jadi inspirasi. But I tell you one thing, you are!
Waktu aku lagi dalam keadaan stuck, nggak bisa mikir aku harus gimana, aku langsung mikir kalau seandainya edric yang dalam keadaan seperti ini, apa yang dia bakal lakukan…..itu yang aku lakukan!
Hah! tell you, you have the power to change me.
Thank you edric for everything. You done too much for me. I just want you to know that I love you deep down my heart and I adore you but not in the same way like others. Thank you for trust me, thank you for all the helps, thank you for all the supports, and thank you for the good times…
You still my inspiration….until whenever.
Dear Ping,
The funniest person I ever know. Aku nggak tau km itu terbuat dari apa, ping..tapi km punya bakat jadi pelawak! Sepanjang aku pergi dan ada kamu disana, aku nggak isa stop ketawa dari awal berangkat sampe pulang. Huah….tetanggaku punya bakat tersembunyi. I must be proud of you.
Sebentar lagi (kalo jadi juga sih ) kamu ke aussie…aku pasti kangen soro ma lawakanmu. Nggak ada guyonan-guyonan gila mu kalo pergi ma bul-bul gank ato edric agre..
Like I said, you are the funniest person I know. And I am happy to have you as my friend. Lumayan ping, penghiburan dikala duka, kesenangan dikala kesedihan. Hahaha…
You are a nice guy, you know. Tapi seandainya saja kamu bisa lebih tinggi sedikit, mungkin km isa jadi perfect.hahaahaha
So I will note that. I will include your height in my wish list. Haha…
Thank you ping, you are such a great friend. Semoga selamanya, kita bisa tetangga-an. AMEN!
Quote of the day:
The greatest gift you can give to someone is your time.
Because when you give someone your time,
you have given them a portion of your life that you’ll never get back.
Hidup ini memang tidak [pernah bisa diduga. Kita nggak pernah tahu apa yang akan terjadi pada detik berikutnya dalam kehidupan kta.
Hari Senin lalu tanggal 3 September, aku tidak pernah tahu akan mengalami ini.
This was my miracle day, a rare opportunity I got..
I won’t forget it for the rest of my life.
I met a pastor from
Missouri ,
USA .
He is a spiritual father of ce lina, my boss at aMOre.
Actually, I don’t know what his name is. But, let cosider his name is George. (I hope I am right.)
This is my first chance to speak and talk with foreign people after a long-long time.
So my English just split up side down, saking nervous-nya.
But I tried to speak normally. I just said what my head told me to.
Grammar is the second priority at that time.
Well, nothing happened so far. We just talk the talk.
Actually I just sat down in the corner and let ce Lina and the pastor led the conversation. Kind of fool, yeah.
Sampai ce Lina cerita ke aku, siapa pastor ini. Dia lahir di Singapura dan besar di
Australia . Setelah itu dia tinggal di
Missouri itu tadi sampe skr. Dia banyak travel country to country, give preach everywhere, invited here, invited there…
Ce Lina juga bilang, pastor ini hebat dalam prophechy.
Pastor ini pernah bilang sama ce Lina, soon after you go back to
Indonesia , you’ll have your own business. Then voila! Jadilah aMOre.
Lalu muncullah keinginan saya untuk juga di-vision-kan.
Namanya juga manusia, pasti pengen tahu apa yang tidak dia ketahui dan berpotensi untuk diketahui.
Daripada tanya sama peramal-peramal nggak jelas, mending ke pastor aja sekalian.
Saya selalu menahan diri kalo ada peramal yang bisa meramal ada di depan mata.
Maksudnya nahan untuk tidak minta diramal.
I train myself to trust God. That’s the only reason.
But Mr. George is a pastor. He is the kind of person who has a closer relationship with God. He has intimacy, He serves God, so I have lots of reason to trust him as God’s representation.
Jaid melalui ce Lina (saya nggak bisa ngomong langsung karena sungkan plus nggak tau harus minta kayak gimana), saya minta didoain plus barangkali ada vision buat saya.
He came forward and ask for my hands. Then we prayed.
Well, actually and honestly, I can’t understand, fully understand what he just said. He spoke in Singapore English accent and he spoke fast. But I have faith for every words he spoke.
Ce Lina translate it for me. And I was amazed because he didn’t know anything about me before, but he said words that describe …me.
The pastor said that I am great at writing….that is a gift from God. Use it well.
In these first words, I knew it is true! I love to write, I love to put thoughts in my head into words, and I love to speak my mind.
I know I can write, but I never realize it as a gift…as my talent. And now I already open my eyes.
He said I am a visionary. I always think about everything far forward. I know what I want for life. Because for me, if we don’t have it, then our life is like a flow water. Just go wherever the river take us.
And the last point I heard by myself was he let me to write down 7 wishes, because it gonna happen in the future. God is gonna fulfill it.
I make a list then.
Setelah mikir-mikir mau nulis apa, aku jadi bingung sendiri mau minta apa. Jadi aku putuskan untuk tidak meminta hal-hal buat diriku sendiri, tapi juga untuk semua orang.
I pray for my family, I pray for my self and my future, I pray for me, having a huge heart…huge enough to put everyone I know to this heart, even strangers.
Everyone is a stranger at the beginning. Interactions and relationship makes us not.
I pray so I can travel around the world, watching every creation God has made, I pray for my health and the entire family, I pray for me, so I always stand near God. Walk in His way for the rest of my life.
I pray so I have the abilities to change he world and the people inside, and make it a better place to live and live with.
I pray for everything I want in this life. For me, for my family, friends, and the world.
Ada sesuatu yang bener-bener aku sadari right after he let go my hand. Jesus is sooooo good to me.
Aku hampir nangis pas itu, dan udah jadi genangan pas masuk mobil mau pulang.
In my heart, I said to God….how kind You are to me. I‘m not deserve it.
I know that He is kind. But what make me cry is I never really feel that He is kind to ME.
I never realize it until now.
Nggak pernah terlintas dalam pikiran untuk jadi sok religius begini awalnya. Tapi ini bener-bener apa yang baru aku alami. He already touched my heart…that will last forever.
I believe those day wasn’t an accident. I met the pastor for a reason.
I don’t know what the future will bring tomorrow, it may be good. It may be sad.
One thing I know for sure, whatever happen…it will lead me to another greater story.
And someday, in the day I step my foot in the “highest mountain”, I will look back…and I will amaze by God’s creation in my life.
That’s enough for me, to trusting Him for the rest of my life.
I will rejoice His name triple times than before!!!!! Amen.
